A lot of Ins, A lot of Outs… I’m still trying to digest this full day…

tonight i ate the same meal as i did the last time i ate with my father for his birthday… the cherished double double… driving home i had a conversation with my younger brother afterwards, guiding and supporting him to discover his own path in this world, hopefully encouraging him to think critically about his decision… and to be thankful that it is his to make. tonight i watched my wife maintain her integrity and dedication to her students even after coming that much closer to certain unemployment today… this afternoon i watched the sunset and the wind blow… this afternoon i watched high school students present at the AERA conference on liberatory practice, effective teaching strategies, as well as the importance of effective support that transcends the classroom and pure academic achievement in the traditional sense… i watched students begin to creatively and inspirationally write their own counter-narrative to their academic experience while at the same time i twittered the unfortunate events of a school board relegated to old ways of solving old problems (read: “solving” old problems by making even bigger ones)… today i came to realize that amidst all the educational theories (critical race theory, socio-cultural theory, critical literacy, constructivism, dialogic inquiry, authentic caring, counter-narrative, participatory action research theory, 3rd space, Dewey and democratic theory, tipping point theory, thug pedagogy?) discussed about in convention centers by experts and aspiring experts, it amounts to nothing without action… today i realized that part of organizing for social justice and equity in education, especially in urban schools like mine requires that act of theorizing as students and teachers and sharing that knowledge base, spreading it… this afternoon i supported a mentor’s work, even though i arrived late… today i bought good old fashioned printed materials unto that end… this morning i presented on a topic for the 3rd or 4th time and just now began to understand its deeper relevance to what i do as a teacher… this morning i felt the support of colleagues long absent in my daily practice…
today i woke up with colleagues and friends texting me with assistance, picking up the slack for me, carrying the load… this morning i woke up in a house full of guitars and love and love for guitars…

tonight i ate the meal that my father and i shared as our last meal together and tonight i shared a conversation with my younger brother about his bright future…
this morning i woke up…
tomorrow i get to teach…

i am still trying to digest a full day…